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Hello spideys and whatever that's on my blog now.. Pls excuse me and give me some space to write.

Finally I had the chance to post something. I've been really busy recently. Mainly with work, then shifting house and work again. And I've got no internet at home now, can only rely on office's com which is kinda lag though.

Anyway, as mentioned on my previous post, which is about a month ago, I started working already. I'm based at MOE and I'm working for Vital, a government sector. =) Sounds great uh? Whether is it great or not, its still early to judge. People's nice, but work's an ass.

Shifted house. From hougang to sengkang, near Renjong LRT station. Its a rental flat, so I'll be staying there for about 1 year's time. Not bad actually, just a lil small.
Had a lot of conflicts in between. It didnt went well with the initial plan, and thus we rented a flat. I can say its better, life's easier for mum and dad. Just not very happy about that woman. Sigh, what to do....

Miss my girls... Havent been able to chat with them much. Let's meet up soon la!!

And pipo, if you're reading this. PLEASE STOP DATING AND MEET US!!!

Chanel and Yunting, please come back quick and bring us PRESENTS!! and Nougats!! haha.

I miss you sweet.

Hello peepos! yaya, i know. there're spider webs, dust, whatever, whatever on my blog already. i'm sorry blog. didnt had time to update. but here i am now! updating you with the latest news. =D

I've got a job already!! i'm at my new office now. first day of work, nothing much for me to do actually. people were great, environment not too bad. its a bit old la. but still, i'm contented. =)
Its a HR Officer position. i'm working for vital.org, but my office is at MOE. I'm dealing with foreign teachers coming to singapore to teach. can be interesting la. but this will only last me for 3months i guess? cos after getting familiar with everything, it'll be kinda dry and boring. cos everything's about procedures and procedures.. and procedures again. so now you see? haha. but the people around me are great! that's what i see for now, and they are prone to changes. Hah!

Anyway, I miss the two who went to aust and abandoned us. =( I miss my dearie, cos I havent been seeing him since.. yesterday? =p I miss bballing, suppering, shopping, chilling with GFs! meet up soon ya?

I need more MONEH!!!

MONEH, MONEY COME!!!

I'm working at the shop today. in fact, its every Monday for this month. no more book fairs cos its school holidays now. and i still havent found a perm job yet. -Bored.

A lot of things are happening. Chanel's leaving on friday, and yunting's leaving in july. sigh. (why do you guys have to go so far to study??) ying chian and phylis are moving house soon. heard that yc's moving to jurong, phy to boonkeng. i'm moving soon too. we're all gonna be separated!! say me emotional or whatever. i'm feeling really sad now. ;((

I'll be working for the IT fair once again. anyone who wants to buy lappy? pls come to the NEC booth to look for me!! =) but i wont be working on friday.
Cos the bird's flying off. I'll miss you, birdy. Pls dont disappear after meeting new friends, especially cute ang mohs, and forget about us alright? haha.

Staying at home on a Friday night? It just doesnt get better with a crazy woman bugging you for your lappy. and she makes me afraid of leaving my room and go to the loo. =/

Things at home arent getting any better. Parent's gonna rent a flat for sure. Just felt uncomfortable with that idea, but there's no other way out.

"Will you still love me, mummy?" This sentence may seem simple to you. But its not for a 7-year old. I feel the heartache, jealousy and the fear that she felt. I'm sorry for her, so sorry..

Another night when i have so much to say, but i got no one to turn to. -Helpless.

Freakiest woman that I Hated.

That stupid, irritating, thick-skin, good-for-nothing woman still doesnt want to go and sleep. =/ argh!!!

I'm beginning to feel that i'm relying on you too much. By counting the days that i'm seeing you can tell, dont they? I guess you feel the strain too. Though you didnt say a word, I felt the tiredness in you. I'm sorry. I know you didnt mind, you wana make me happy. Give me whatever I want that you can give. I'm aware and I really appreciate it. I want you to be happy too. Not just me, its US, remember? I understand that you're thinking for me that's why you're doing it. Am I not thinking for you? When i wana do things for your sake, do you listen to me?

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I dont know why am i feeling this way. I know i've been having moodswings recently. Easily agitated. I'm sorry. I cant help it. Things just dont feel right for me. Be it family, friends, or even you. Somethings' missing somewhere. I'm trying to find it.

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Are things changing?
Is it turning into a different road?
Or its just an illusion?
I hate this.

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我知道你为我好啊。

但你有没有想过我真正要的是什么？

而你真正要的是什么？

I know there are some stuff that I've done wrong. Totally, thoroughly wrong. Things towards you, my parents, my friends. I'm wrong for so many things. And I guess, its my retribution now. Its so hard to be a better person. I'm trying hard. I wana accommodate to whatever ppl want me to do. Like you said, make ppl around you happy. No matter how tired you are or you will be, you're happy because I'm happy.

I understand your point. I was once a person like that. Someone you didn't know because I'm no longer that person anymore. Somehow, the 'being taken for-granted' feeling killed that person. I know how it feels to be nice to someone and he/she does not see it or appreciate it.

And I know you're being very nice to me, and I loved it! But I have been hurting you with my inconsideration, insensitivity and ignorance. I'm sorry. I'm not a good gf. I guess I haven't been nice to someone for a long time. Even for myself. Have been running away, away from everyone, from myself. - Avoidance

You, you turned me around. Make me see the things that I've done and the things that I should've done but left undone. And now that I've seen it, I want to change things. I'm picking it up again. Trying at my fastest pace to learn, to be that person once more. Though I know, its not as fast as it may be. But I'm working on it.

So, I'm sorry darling. I need more time. And thank you, for your tolerance. I really appreciated it.